30 September 2005

Left`alone
9/30/2005 06:23:00 PM™

29 September 2005

People see me as someone fierce, even to the extent that im bulling my guy. oh wth. Don't judge a book by the cover. That's all i can say. Im NOT fierce. Those that know me will say this.

PPP timetable is out. My physics sux. Nothing seems great. how? I need someone to teach me Amaths.

It's 29 today.

Graduation day tml.

Nothing's on the day after.

This is my life. ^^

Left`alone
9/29/2005 01:50:00 PM™

27 September 2005

nah nah nah nah nahhhH!

I love going to sch. funny?? Insanity.

Everything was fine today. Got back my chemistry p1 and i had gotten 29 out of 40 right. aiya. was expecting at least 30, but still, nvm..

o lvl nearing. I am assiduous. hahaha. whatever la. i don't have the mood to blog, again.

Starving right now too. So pathetic. =.=

Left`alone
9/27/2005 03:05:00 PM™

26 September 2005

The stupid headache is back, after so long. >.<

English paper 2 result... got 31/50. Im aiming for a better mark. But still, 31 is not that bad.

I'd tried putting up a smile for today, tiring but still, it's okay. It's better to start the day off right with a smile.

Next week onwards no more epp.. There comes o lvl. Stress. aiya.

Dont have the mood to blog anything.

btw, i found out that teresa wanna go to the same course as me! This is a good news. But, it depends on whether i can actually get in or not. =.=''

Everything is so discouraging.

So FLAT.

Left`alone
9/26/2005 02:56:00 PM™

25 September 2005

aiya. To think about it, i don't really have alot of friends. >.<

i know i know.. We're drifting apart. And im putting it to a stop now.

What i want is someone who truly understand me, be by my side when im down, able to read my thoughts and analyse stuff that confuse me.

Im someone who people won't consider asking out. It's always because of him in the past. But not now. Not in the future.

I told u i don't have many friends. Wanna bet? No more than 10 people will be reading this post.

ISOLATED. REDUNDANCE. ME. *sighz*

I spent my lonely weekends alone, went out alone and practically did everything alone. He's never there, so don't bother to ask me where he is. Adding on to that, he's grounded now. Just because hewenttosleepwhenheissupposetostudy. He promised to look for me today cuz he overslept yesterday when he's suppose to come to my house. But then, he NEVER. He won't. i can't understand why the fuck must he sleep so much. It's so freaking a waste of time. He's always like this.. Talked to him so many times but still, the same thing happen again. Im giving up la. . . . Someone guide me please. I have no idea what to do now.

Friends, he's no longer a reason for me to reject dates. He just won't get things right.. ='(

How bad and stupid can i get for neglecting my friends just for someone who don't bother about anything.

Someone just knock me in my head and wake me up pls.

Left`alone
9/25/2005 06:04:00 PM™

Spent the whole afternoon packing my personal belongings. Ended up sneezing and coughing. =.='' now u know how long i'd never touch the stuff eh.

Went through many letters while packing. All the memories started flooding me. There's this hand drawn map and a paper with some grumble of someone while waiting for me. This indeed had reminded me of the past, and the big present given to me by him which sits quietly beside my table from then till now. it'd been 2yrs or more but it was as though all these happened yesterday. And without me noticing, they're in my personal locker for 2 years plus. Look at how time flies. SO FAST. There's also this watch, poem and song by someone.. I think they're there for 2 years too. ah. olden days.

All these stuff brings me good memories. Hmmm.. If u remember who u are.. accept my big thankyou. Thanks alot for giving me such wonderful memories. Even though time doesn't stay at that moment, but still, it's good to have em. It's better than nothing. =)

Left`alone
9/25/2005 05:08:00 PM™

24 September 2005

I wish i wish i wish. I wish that everyone around me will be HAPPY! :D

Left`alone
9/24/2005 08:42:00 PM™

I had everything planned out for today.

Morning : library

Afternoon : Meet him for lunch

Night : Stay at home and it's tv-cum-computer-cum-reading-cum-study-cum-everything time

Being alone is always interesting. You tend to observe people around you and find something interesting about them. I reached lib at 11. ah. I thought lib opens at 11 on weekends but it turned out that it opens at 10 everyday. =.='' There goes all the seats, i thought. It was better somehow cause i still managed to get a seat, but near where the computers are. Tiak-tiak-tick-tick-tick. That's the disadvantage of sitting near the computers. The sound of the keyboards was so damned irritating.

But still, that's the interesting part. All those noises created by the keyboard aroused my curiousity. I 'peeped' at the monitor next to me. The girl was obviously typing something long as the noises were going on and on for quite some time. "Friendster" =.=!! DOTS. She was typing a testimonial for i-don't-know-who, and it was so so so so so long. She wasn't a good and accurate typist as what i can see. Keep on backspacing and bla bla. Wonder why can't she write it at home, sparing the others from the noise pollution.

After leaving the lib, i went window shopping for a while. I thought that i would be meeting him for lunch but it turned out that he's tired and wanted to take a nap. He said he would meet me at 3 but now, it's already 3.15. Forget it la. He still have a tuition at 4... That's him, always like this..

Left`alone
9/24/2005 02:57:00 PM™

23 September 2005


This was taken quite some time ago, but it's still so cosy, warm and nice.

It's amazing how things change. Comparing now and then, what i can say about the change is that it is irreversible; which may be good or bad depending on how u interpret.

This picture down here, reminds me that nothing can stay forever. Just by looking at it, i can simply name down many differences between now and then. Not that our relationship have turned sour or sorts. The change is solely inexplicable.

I had no idea why im blogging this. Just happen to see this picture while sortting out my folders. Everything is so messy around me, including my study desk, room, cupboard and etc, you name it, it's in a horrible mess. Time for me to get my stuff organised, that's what on my mind. But. Thinking about it is still different from the actual doing.

Life is still the same for me, with some exceptions. I seem to be neglecting other aspects of it.

ah. This whole post is actually meaningless for readers, and actually, not many people are actually reading my blog. I believe that those that read this are the ones that bother about me.

I should just be happy that you are willing to spend some time in reading my post.

Life is still beautiful as ever.

Left`alone
9/23/2005 06:27:00 PM™

Left`alone
9/23/2005 03:02:00 PM™

GAAAAA gagagagagaga. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA yayaya~

LOL. anyway, Prelim's OVER! Here comes o lvls...

hmm. Any idea which business course is better? Im curious.

Suddenly have the urge to go Ikea. Thinking of getting new furniture and stuff. But there's one major problem. NO MONEY. =.=''

Out for a date, anyone?

Left`alone
9/23/2005 02:42:00 PM™

22 September 2005

What is life? Life is nothing without meaning.

Left`alone
9/22/2005 06:37:00 PM™

Last paper for prelims, next will be the o lvl papers. arg..

Im thinking about where i should head in the future recently. Just in case i can't get into any design course, or not up to the standard as i nv take arts as a main subject before, i can go for business courses~ It looks fun too.

Trip to school early in the morning was kind of bored and lonely. There's nobody i can talk to; you can't expect me to talk to strangers behind right.
imagine..
me: hi hi! where are u heading?
stranger: *stare* uh? (this girl must be crazy. maybe over stressed... gosh)
me: =.=''
that's what gonna happen.. glup.
Usually, i would walk to his house and meet him before going to school together. Though he's almost always late. It's still better to have him beside me. Due to prelims.. there're days where he didnt have to report to sch but i must.. just like today. Aiyaaa.. Im not used to going school alone now. :x

Tml no school again! How relaxing~ provided that nobody mention o lvls. =)

Left`alone
9/22/2005 11:23:00 AM™

21 September 2005

It's early in the morning. No school today, but im awake.

Got to study for Physics. Last paper tomorrow. I'm waiting for the results. Haha.

Great day, Great morning, Great mood, Great me. ^^

Left`alone
9/21/2005 07:22:00 AM™

20 September 2005

I've changed everything. Simple and plain. Life had been so tiring recently with prelims and many other stuff to cope with. By the way, my computer had just recovered from a burnt motherboard due to my previous keyboard. How unlucky can i get?

Chemistry paper 1 for me and POA paper 1 for him today. Unluckily, he forgot his calculator, which means, both of us with only 1 calculator. So i just lent him mine and did all my calculation with workings and mental sums. This sucks. When i double checked, i spotted at least 3 calculation mistake. The last time i killed my brain cells on calculation without calculator was 4 years ago?? Now i know how important it is in my life.

After chemistry is A maths paper2, which i can just say goodbye to a B3 or higher. Out of a total of 12 questions, i think i can only get 8 of it answered, with at least 3 which i think my answers are wrong. HAHAHA. =.=''

Things ain't going well for me~

Went to get my cpu from the shop with him just now. Another . . . dots. He just grumbled all the way from the shop back to my house, saying that he's free labour or whatever. Can't he just be kind enough to help? Can't i rely on him for just a single thing...?

Things ain't the same anymore...

Someone, cheer me and brighten my day up please?

Left`alone
9/20/2005 08:04:00 PM™

13 September 2005

My world is disastrous. Can be discribed as thousands and hundreds of meteoroid crashing into Earth, with an extremely loud KABOOM. Things keep on getting the wrong way, everything seem to be going against me. URGH. Can anyone understand?

This prelim is going to be a nightmare. The worst is when the result comes out. I will be seriously bombarded by all the digits on my scripts and maybe isolate myself for months afterwards. lol. Stress is so unbearable!

Can i have a better choice? Im never contented.

Left`alone
9/13/2005 02:01:00 PM™

12 September 2005

THIS SHALL BE MY NEW BLOG.
(with the skin i made months ago)

The links are not yet ready. All the old, ancient links. Update me with new ones if you see this.

Don't really know why i named this blog 'In Denial'. The idea just happen to cross my mind. I am certain that everyone did deny some matters before in their life. They can't just shake it off.

Ouchh. Just nonsense for my very first post.

Enjoy! LOL. =D

pss. Im using old tagboard too. Don't mind the mess.

Left`alone
9/12/2005 04:04:00 PM™